Once again, traipse.


It’s the beginning of my last semester and the beginning of my seminar with Barbara Campbell Thomas. It’s been quite a while since I’ve written a proper blog post (though I have been posting daily on the Traipse tumblr.) But today, I had a strong urge to come back to this. I was reminded of the significance of the title “traipse” and also realized that naming it “traipse” was much more poignant that I could have imagined.

Traipse is (as the subtitle reads) “to walk or travel about without apparent plan, with or without purpose.” I began this blog in the spring of 2012. I’d just finished applying to graduate schools, but didn’t know where I was going yet. But I felt that I was going somewhere. Or at least I had faith that a journey forward in any direction would take me where I needed to go.

Almost 2 years later, I’m beginning my thesis semester at UNCG. And what a hard road it’s been. So much self-doubt and desperation. I’ve often felt unrecognizable to myself. But interspersed among the moments of despair, I’ve felt that I was still moving in the right direction.

It was Barbara’s “Notes on being an artist” in her syllabus that reminded me that “traipsing” (despite it’s perils and uncertainties) is what I am determined to do.

She wrote:

“Being an artist is, to use age old language, being on a quest/setting out in ardent search: for what you see but do not know, for what you know or sense but do not see. (And I so believe THIS encompasses all manner of work, from the most interior and esoteric abstract painting to the most overtly community-oriented/anti-modernist/social practice/anti-object manner of working.)

Do we possess the conviction that what will be found at the end of the quest is worth the effort of taking it on? What I will learn/realize/see is found in the “making”—which is active and does not end, and it is important to remember that  “making” is not “product.”

Being an artist is about pursuit of a question— a question that necessitates a high degree of focus, a willingness to question basic assumptions of who we are/what we do, and quite simply, engage with consciousness.”

When I read that today, I immediately thought, “Oh yeah.  That’s traipsing.” And that’s what I’ve been doing all along. Life is a hard f*cking road. And I say that with all the awe and love available in my being.

2 thoughts on “Once again, traipse.

  1. Interesting perspective on art and where you are . Didn’t know you were still using Tumblr. Forgot how to get to you on that ???

    Sent from my iPhone


  2. Thanks, Amanda! Hang in there, gal! You’ll find the path or it will show itself in a surprise moment. Have no expectations and you will be amazed how life cooperates!! You are super and delighting all of us with your talent, insights, and knowledge! Love, Ann

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